Holly Willoughby: I've felt like a spectator of my own life
Holly Willoughby has felt like a "spectator" of her own life at times.
The 40-year-old TV star has admitted to feeling "a little adrift" and using detachment as a coping mechanism at different points in her life.
In her new book, 'Reflections', Holly explains: "I wasn’t present in my life. Something was missing. There were moments when I felt a bit like a spectator of my own life. I wasn’t sad, I wasn’t depressed, it was just a feeling of being a little adrift."
Holly didn't "really notice" that she was using detachment as a means of coping.
And the blonde beauty confessed that her fear of cancel culture led her to start "censoring" her own views.
She shared: "I find myself almost regurgitating what other people have said because I don’t know what I want to say any more."
Holly thinks she "lost a part" of herself during her career. But after creating an all-female agency called Roxy, she now believes she's regaining some control.
She said: "I hadn’t realised I’d lost a part of me when I gave up responsibility to someone else, but now I am regaining that."
Meanwhile, Holly previously confessed to being shy and lacking confidence during her younger years.
The 'This Morning' host actually struggled to look people in the eye at the start of her career.
Holly - who started modelling as a teenager, before she moved into the TV business - explained: "Looking back on my career, I realise that I’ve only got to this point by putting myself in uncomfortable positions.
"I was always very shy and I never really had the confidence to speak up for myself when I was younger."
