Seann Walsh has confessed the scandal surrounding his kiss with his Strictly Come Dancing professional partner Katya Jones in 2018 "destroyed his dreams" for his comedy career.
The comedian hit headlines in late 2018 when he was pictured kissing his dance partner Katya, despite him being in a longterm relationship and Katya being married to fellow Strictly dancer Neil Jones.
Reflecting on the scandal on the Take Flight podcast, Seann confessed his "life changed forever" after the kissing photos went public and his ambitions for his comedy career disappeared.
"I was a very dream-like young man, I would dream of doing the Apollo, my sitcom, I was always living in this fantasy land," he said, reports the Mirror. "Then it was suddenly the first time I was living without hope.
"A kiss and a statement destroyed my dreams and who I was. What I could have been, what my life could have been, what I could have made myself was gone."
Amid the scandal, Seann's girlfriend Rebecca Humphries issued a lengthy statement announcing their break-up and claiming he called her a "psycho" for questioning his friendship with Katya, who he kissed on Rebecca's birthday.
Seann later issued a statement calling the kiss a "one-off drunken mistake" and Katya also apologised and was supported by Neil, although they eventually split in August 2019.
During the podcast, the 35-year-old admitted his mental health was affected by the incident as he's on anti-depressants and suffers from panic attacks.
"The panic attacks came back – big, big panic attacks and I ended up having what I later found out were vertigo seizures," he revealed. "I had one the other day, I just lied down – I had to lie down in the street, it's quite humiliating. It's London so nobody gives a s**t.
"I have to relive what happened. Still, I can be OK then suddenly the memories of it all come back. It defeats me and beats me until the plates start spinning and I lose balance and fall and start screaming, so I still get them."