Lewis Capaldi Says He's "Never Been More Insecure" In the Trailer for his Netflix Documentary
Lewis Capaldi has officially got his own Netflix documentary! The "Forget Me" singer announced the news on 9 March via a typically hilarious Instagram video as he revealed he is "pretty terrified" for fans to see it, but "so so proud". In the video, he dresses up as characters from iconic Netflix shows including: a period dress to represent "Bridgerton"; a masked man from "Squid Game"; Joe Exotic from "The Tiger King" complete with mullet, naturally; wearing a boilersuit from "Orange is the New Black"; a robber from "Money Heist"; and in pigtails worn by Jenna Ortega in "Wednesday". He finally appears dressed as himself in a hoodie and joggers to announce that he is joining the Netflix family.
The feature-length documentary is called "How I'm Feeling Now" and follows the 26-year-old as he returns to his family home in Scotland following his rise to fame. On 16 March, the streamer released the trailer for the show and it's a no-holds-barred, honest look into the pressures of being in the limelight. "I've never been more insecure in my life than I am now, and I think that's got worse the more successful I've got," he says.
During the trailer, Capaldi admits to feeling the "clock ticking" while writing his second album, called "Broken by Desire to be Heavenly Sent" and set to be released on 19 May. "I started to get in my head about all these pressures," he adds. "My anxiety is out of control. I feel like I'm in a race against the clock to get my mental health in order."
"I've never been more insecure in my life than I am now, and I think that's got worse the more successful I've got."
While the film, which premieres on 5 April, sees Capaldi opening up about imposter syndrome, his unique sense of humour is also threaded throughout the clips. And it's clear the funny bone runs in the family as his mum teases him about picking him up from a one night stand. Although, she is also understandably concerned about her son, asking: "Is it all worth it, making you feel like this?"
"This started out as a film about the process of creating the 'difficult second album' but ended up being an astonishingly unguarded portrait of the pressures of fame on young shoulders, exploring one of the great conversations of our age – mental health," said Sam Bridger, head of music film at Pulse Films, as per Variety.
In addition to Capaldi's successful career, he recently opened up about his Tourette's diagnosis, which causes a person to make involuntary sounds and movements called tics. In September, he told fans in an Instagram Live: "My shoulder twitches when I am excited, happy, nervous or stressed. It is something I am living with. It is not as bad as it looks. It's a new thing. I haven't really learnt much about it." During a recent performance in Berlin in Feb., the crowd stepped in to help sing "Someone You Loved" when he experience a flare-up of Tourette's on stage.
While being catapulted to fame undoubtedly comes with its issues, Capaldi is known for being funny on social media and not taking himself too seriously. Take, for example, his brilliant response to Brits host Mo Gilligan calling him Sam. Capaldi's heartfelt documentary is bound to be an emotional rollercoaster, peppered with humour and heart. "Lets give this a go, I'll probably f*ck it up, but we'll have a good time while we do it," he adds. Watch the trailer below.