Lauren Goodger opens up about death of her newborn daughter

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Photo credit: Mark R. Milan - Getty Images
Photo credit: Mark R. Milan - Getty Images

Reality star and influencer Lauren Goodger has revealed that she's getting a post-mortem conducted on her baby daughter, Lorena, who died minutes after she was born on Friday 8 July 2022 in The Queen's Hospital in Romford.

Lauren has been open about her pregnancy journey, sharing details on her Instagram page. And in an emotional post just days after her daughter's death, Lauren shared an intimate black and white photo of her baby's hand touching her fingers. 'Words can’t describe as a mother losing your baby that I carried for all these months perfectly and gave birth too for my angel to be taken from me,' she wrote in the caption. 'I will never ever get over this but I will learn how to live everyday with Lorena in my heart she will be with me always and I will be with her again one day.'

Lauren was going to have a home birth with a birthing pool all set up, but an ambulance was called to rush her into hospital when her midwife was unable to find a heartbeat. 'They said she had a low heart rate and took her to the side. Ten doctors started working on her. They were doing chest compressions and giving her adrenaline,' Lauren said. She also told the Sun that her boyfriend, Charles Drury, 'was screaming please save my baby.'

In the hours following her baby's death, Lauren was supported by Petals, a baby loss counselling charity. She spent time with Lorena, and was able to wash her, dress her and sing to her. 'I bathed her and put her in a white baby grow which belonged to Larose. It was beautiful,' said Lauren, who is also mum to one-year-old, Larose. 'I have some locks of her hair and they gave us a candle for her. A photographer was organised and they took some beautiful pictures. My friends put two into a locket which I wear around my neck.'

'They think her oxygen may have been restricted. That is why I am having an autopsy,' the former TOWIE star, who is 35 years old, told the Sun. 'I need to understand how she died for my own sanity. She looked like she was sleeping. I thought she’d wake up.'

'I went into hospital thinking I would come home with a baby girl but I came home with nothing. Lorena was a healthy baby and it was a textbook pregnancy,' Lauren said. 'I was in shock. My midwife was with me and she said, "She will be fine." I thought she would be alright,' continued Lauren, who said she sat in the 'bloodied' bed sheets for hours because she couldn't move. 'I just sat there in shock.'

Lauren is now planning Lorena's funeral, and heartbreakingly had to register both the birth and death of her baby daughter on the very same day. She wants to support other women who have experienced baby loss by sharing her own story. 'Since Lorena passed away, I have had so many messages from other women who have gone through this too. I want to talk about her death to help other parents out there going through this. I want them to know they aren’t alone.'

Queen’s Hospital, where baby Lorena was born, have commented: 'We would like to express our sincere condolences to Lauren and her family [...] Lauren was brought to our hospital in an ambulance after her midwife was unable to detect a heartbeat during a home birth, and despite the best efforts of our staff, sadly we were unable to resuscitate Lorena.'

If you need information or support about baby loss, visit www.tommys.org

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