During a recent interview with Sunday Morning presenter Lee Cowan at her home, the ‘Born This Way’ singer discussed reaching the lowest point in her life.
'I didn't really understand why I should live other than to be there for my family,’ she revealed. That was an actual real thought and feeling: "Why should I stick around?"'
Speaking about her depression, she continued: ‘It’s not always easy, if you have mental issues, to let other people see. I used to show. I used to self-harm.
‘I used to say, "Look. I cut myself. See, I’m hurt." Cause I didn’t think anyone could see. 'Cause mental health, it’s invisible.'
The star, whose real name is Stefani Joanna Angelina Germanotta, also touched on the mental trauma that comes with being in the public eye.
Referring to the piano in the room during the interview, she said: 'This is the piano I've had for so many years. I've written so many songs on this piano. And I think, "Oh my gosh, it's so special, this piano, I love this piano." I don't know how to explain.
'I went from looking at this piano and thinking, "You ruined my life!" I was like, "You made me Lady Gaga. My biggest enemy is Lady Gaga!"
'That's what I was thinking. My biggest enemy is here. "What did you do? You can't go to the grocery store now. If you go to dinner with your family, somebody comes to the table... It's always about you. And your outfits, look at your outfits! Why you gotta be like that?!"'
The singer, who recently won three MTV Video Music Awards, noted that her song ‘Pop a 911’ is inspired by the medication she takes when she panics and struggles to comprehend her Gaga fame.
‘There's not one song on that record that's not true,’ she said of her album Chromatica. ‘Not one. I totally gave up on myself, I hated being famous. I hated being a star. I felt exhausted and used up.
'I don't hate Lady Gaga anymore. I found a way to love myself again, even when I thought that was never gonna happen.
'Now I look at this piano and I go, "Oh, my god, my piano! My piano that I love so much; my piano that lets me speak; my piano that lets me make poetry; my piano that's mine."'
During her discussion with Cowan, the star also spoke about her friendship with her 'Rain On Me' collaborator Ariana Grande.
‘I love that girl,’ she said of the 27-year-old singer. ‘You know how hard it is to make a female friend in this business? In this business, having a female friend is like watching a pig fly.'
Gaga has spoken about her struggles with mental health on several occasions over the years.
In May, she told presenter Zane Lowe on the Apple Music podcast: 'I've flirted with the idea of sobriety. I'm not there yet, but I flirted with it throughout the album. It's something that came up as a result of me trying to work through the pain that I was feeling.
'But part of my healing process was going, "Well, I can either lash the hell out of myself every day for continuing to drink, or I can just be happy that I'm still alive and keep going and feel good enough." I am good enough... I'm perfectly imperfect.'
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