Ellie Goulding is expecting her first child with her husband Caspar Jopling.
Goulding, who is 30 weeks into her pregnancy, revealed that she had no idea she was pregnant last August during her last public appearance at a show at the Victoria & Albert Museum - but found out shortly after.
“That was [around] the time when Caspar and I went away briefly when we were allowed for our one-year wedding anniversary, and that’s basically when we found out,” she told Vogue. Goulding tied the knot with art dealer Jopling in 2019 at York Minister in a beautiful bespoke Chloé gown.
“It was crazy because it was our one-year anniversary. That was not the plan. The thought of getting pregnant didn’t seem like it could be a reality. Becoming pregnant kind of made me feel human. I want a better word than womanly, [but] — I have curves I’ve never had before. I’m enjoying it. My husband’s enjoying it.”
Goulding, who has been isolating in Gloucestershire during the pandemic, says she was in denial at first and didn’t believe she could be pregnant.
"I started having a completely different body and different energy, I couldn't deal with everything," she says.
The singer opened up about the emotional reality of pregnancy, explaining that she has done a lot of self-reflecting as well as feeling isolated.
“You have your partner, and you have your friends, but in a pandemic, it can feel particularly lonely,” Goulding explains. “Because it wasn’t something I had planned for right now, [and] I knew it was a more solitary journey because of what’s going on. I think that made me keep it very secretive and made me very protective over it.
"The sickness and tiredness was nothing I’d ever experienced before. I feel like it’s a taboo to talk about pregnancy as being challenging. It’s not always serene and like you’re not always glowing. I’m not saying that every second of this pregnancy has been miserable. It’s not always going to be easy. [But,] I have a newfound respect for any woman who has children.”
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