Chrissy Teigen opens up about feeling "depressed" and "lost" in emotional Instagram post

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Photo credit: Kevin Mazur - Getty Images
Photo credit: Kevin Mazur - Getty Images

In an emotional Instagram post, Chrissy Teigen has opened up about feeling "depressed" and "lost," following her public apology for trolling Courtney Stodden.

In the caption to the post, Chrissy explained that she felt it was "weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter s**t in real life," after she returned to Twitter in June earlier this year. She added, "I feel lost and need to find my place again, I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay."

The model and cookbook author faced criticism earlier this year after a series of cruel tweets directed at Courtney Stodden - a minor at the time - from 2011 emerged online. Referencing the public backlash to the tweets in her latest Instagram post, Chrissy mentioned belonging to "cancel club," saying that, "only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know 'til you’re in it."

She explained her motivation for the candid post, saying, "I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just...tired of being sick with myself all day."

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Chrissy's caption in full reads:

Iiiii don’t really know what to say here...just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter s**t in real life. Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right, being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race. But I do know that however I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer.

I feel lost and need to find my place again, I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay. I’m not used to any other way!!

Cancel club is a fascinating thing and I have learned a whollllle lot. Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it. And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously you sound whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong. It just sucks. There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow.

All I know is I love you guys, I miss you guys, and I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just...tired of being sick with myself all day. I don’t even know if it’s good to say any of this because it’s gonna get brutally picked apart but I dunno. I can’t do this silent shit anymore! If you or someone you know has also been cancelled please let me know if there is a cancel club reunion because I could use some time off my couch! Thank u and goodbye I love u.

Photo credit: Instagram/Chrissy Teigen
Photo credit: Instagram/Chrissy Teigen

Chrissy has since received an outpouring of support on the post, with her close friend Jen Atkin commenting, "You stand for and do so many positive things. You’re smart. You’re funny. You’re so loved. You have an incredible life and future ahead and I love you."

Paris Hilton and Tess Holiday were also among her celebrity friends sharing their support, with Paris commenting, "Sending lots of love beauty💕💞💞💞💞💘." and Tess adding, "You’ve always shown me nothing but kindness & love & I hope you show yourself the same in return right now ❤️."

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