Chrissy Teigen has shared a photograph of a new tattoo she got in a poignant tribute to her late baby son Jack. Posting the picture to Twitter, Chrissy showed off her right wrist which now has the name 'Jack' etched in it in script, preserving the memory of her lost baby.
On September 30, following a stay in hospital, Chrissy Teigen and her husband John Legend shared the devastating news that they'd lost their baby boy, Jack, at around 20 weeks of pregnancy. He died due to complications with his placenta. The cookbook author initially shared the couple's grief with a series of black and white photos taken with Jack in the hospital. In a heartbreaking caption, Chrissy wrote: "We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before."
Following the sad announcement, the 34-year-old understandably took some time away from social media, until she shared a blog post last week in which she opened up in depth about the difficult experience of losing a child. "After a couple nights at the hospital, my doctor told me exactly what I knew was coming — it was time to say goodbye. He just wouldn’t survive this, and if it went on any longer, I might not either," Chrissy painfully described.
"Late one night, I was told it would be time to let go in the morning. I cried a little at first, then went into full blown convulsions of snot and tears, my breath not able to catch up with my own incredibly deep sadness. Even as I write this now, I can feel the pain all over again. Oxygen was placed over my nose and mouth, and that was the first picture you saw. Utter and complete sadness."
She ended her piece by sending thanks to well wishers, and explaining that writing about her loss had been cathartic. "I wrote this because I knew for me I needed to say something before I could move on from this and return back to life, so I truly thank you for allowing me to do so. Jack will always be loved, explained to our kids as existing in the wind and trees and the butterflies they see."
We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough. . . We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever. . . To our Jack - I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you. . . Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you. . . We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience. But everyday can’t be full of sunshine. On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it.
A post shared by chrissy teigen (@chrissyteigen) on Sep 30, 2020 at 8:58pm PDT
As Chrissy's new tattoo shows, Jack's legacy is a permanent one. He'll never be forgotten by his family, and the memory of him will be carried both internally and externally by his mother forever.
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