Candice Brown has admitted that opening up about her mental health struggles in her new book "has nearly broken" her.
The Great British Bake Off winner has candidly written about her battle with anxiety, her recent ADHD diagnosis and getting through 2020, which she called "the hardest, most difficult, horrible year of my life", in her new book Happy Cooking: Easy Uplifting Meals and Comforting Treats.
Addressing about how difficult it was to lift the lid on her struggles, she writes, "This book is testament to the fact that every day I just about put one foot in front of the other and I am here. Ironic that a book about food (my favourite thing) and mental health has nearly broken me. But in truth it has.
"This has been the toughest thing I have had to do. I have found it so hard to get things on paper. I am laying myself bare, talking about things I've not really spoken about and quite frankly I am terrified."
In the last year, Candice, who won the baking show in 2016, split from husband Liam Macauley, was diagnosed with ADHD and found her pub business devastated by the pandemic.
In the book, the 36-year-old continued to open up about how cooking helps gets her through her dark days.
"My mental health is something I hadn't really spoken about until fairly recently, but it is something I've been battling with for quite a few years," she shared, reports The Sun. "I have had days where I didn't want to get out of bed, I've cancelled plans, not spoken to family and friends and felt completely useless.
"But I have also accomplished things I never thought possible - and probably other people never thought possible - and that is because I found something I love.
"I cook and bake when I'm happy, when I'm sad, when I'm bored, anxious or fidgety - which I now know is sometimes down to my ADHD - when that dark cloud surrounds me like a thick, heavy burden and I have no idea why. It's my place."
She went on to call cooking her "saviour" and "my kind of therapy" as gives her confidence when she's feeling low and "reminds me that I am good enough."