Billies Eilish Stresses Her Desire To Have Kids, But ‘Dreads’ Being Anxious About Protecting Them

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Billie Eilish may only be 20 years old, and busy touring the world as a hugely successful musician, but besides putting out fresh tracks, the singer has future motherhood on her mind.

During an interview with the Sunday Times Magazine, the Oscar-winner stressed just how much she eventually wants to have kids.

Eilish, who is rumoured to have dated fellow actor Matthew Tyle Vorce and rapper Brandon Quention Adams (Q) in the past, told the news outlet she would 'rather die' than not have kids.

'I need them,' she insisted.

But she also 'dreads' feeling anxious about motherhood.

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Photo credit: Kevin Mazur - Getty Images

'The older I get, the more I experience things, I just think, uuggh, what am I going to do when my kid thinks that this is the right thing to do and I’m, like, no, it’s not! And they won’t listen to me,' she said.

Eilish, who was homeschooled as a child, along with her older brother Finneas Baird, and graduated at 15 after passing a high school equivalency exam, opened up about the 'separation anxiety' she had from her own parents.

She explained: 'I had crippling, life-changing separation anxiety, I couldn’t be away from my parents.

'I was worried about what would happen to them, I was worried about what would happen to me, I was worried about being forgotten.'

She also spoke of her fear of school shootings amid the current issues facing kids in America.

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Photo credit: Axelle/Bauer-Griffin - Getty Images

'Why is it OK to be scared to go to school? ... You go to school and be prepared for a life-changing traumatic experience or dying. What? Who? Where is the logic there?' she said.

In December 2021, Eilish revealed her tough experiences growing up, some due to watching porn early on - a habit that 'destroyed' her brain.

Speaking on the Howard Stern Show on Sirius XM, she said: 'As a woman, I think porn is a disgrace. I used to watch a lot of porn, to be honest. I started watching porn when I was, like, 11.'

She admitted that it originally made her feel like 'one of the guys'.

The 'My Boy' singer added: 'I think it really destroyed my brain and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn.'

And she believed 'abusive' porn impacted her sleep paralysis and night terrors.

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Photo credit: Lionel Hahn - Getty Images

At the time, she also highlighted that 'violent' porn affected her sex life.

'It got to a point where I couldn’t watch anything else unless it was violent, I didn’t think it was attractive,' she said.

'I was a virgin. I had never done anything. And so, it led to problems.

'The first few times I, you know, had sex, I was not saying no to things that were not good. It was because I thought that’s what I was supposed to be attracted to. I’m so angry that porn is so loved, and I’m so angry at myself for thinking that it was okay.'

Eilish, who's opened up about body shame in the past and in 2020 released a short film, Not My Responsibility, about people's perception of her appearance, added that the way 'vaginas look in porn is f*cking crazy'.

'No vaginas look like that. Women’s bodies don’t look like that. We don’t come like that.'

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