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Billie Eilish Says Writing 'Barbie' Track Helped Her Get Out of a 'Really Dark Place’: 'I Felt Understood'

The singer, 22, said she thought her career might be 'over' before writing the hit track, which earned her two Grammys on Sunday night

<p>Lester Cohen/Getty Images </p> Billie Eilish attends the 2024 Grammy Awards.

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Billie Eilish attends the 2024 Grammy Awards.

Billie Eilish was in "a dark place" before writing the Grammy-winning Barbie track "What Was I Made For?"

The singer, 22, and her brother Finneas, 26, took home the coveted gramophone for song of the year at Sunday's 2024 Grammy Awards.

After the big win at the Crypto.com Arena in Los Angeles, Eilish — who also walked away with the best song written for visual media award for the Barbie track — spoke about how writing the song has affected the music she's been creating since.

"We had really been writing absolutely nothing before we had that opportunity to write for Barbie," the "Happier Than Ever" hitmaker told reporters.

"We had been working three days a week and not coming up with stuff. And even if we were coming up with stuff, it just didn't feel right, didn't feel good, didn't feel real. And I got really worried. I got nervous," Eilish continued. "I felt like it was going to be over a little bit. I was in a really dark place; a really, really dark place, and it's kind of hard to think back to it."

<p>Francis Specker/CBS via Getty Images</p> Billie Eilish and her brother Finneas in the press room at the 2024 Grammys.

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Billie Eilish and her brother Finneas in the press room at the 2024 Grammys.

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Eilish credited Barbie director Greta Gerwig for offering the siblings "this life-changing thing that we didn't really realize was going to be life-changing like that."

The musician went on to share how she and her brother wrote the song "24 hours after we saw the movie and we wrote it [in] under two hours, if not one hour."

"And honestly, from then on, we were just creative again. I don't know. It woke us up and got us back on our thing and it was really special and powerful and I hold it deep and dear to my heart," Eilish continued.

Women dominated the 2024 Grammys, with females including Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus walking away with the major awards.

<p>FREDERIC J. BROWN/AFP via Getty Images</p> Billie Eilish poses with her Grammy awards at the 2024 ceremony.

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Billie Eilish poses with her Grammy awards at the 2024 ceremony.

Eilish said the win makes her feel "seen" as a woman in the industry.

"I would say that as a woman, it feels a lot of the time you're not being seen. And I feel that this makes me feel very seen and I feel like, I don't know, sometimes it feels really good to have somebody tell you, 'good job,' " she told reporters.

"The smallest little thing goes a long way. And this is not small at all, but I feel very seen. I feel very heard. And I did not expect that with this song," admitting that when they came up with the song, she wasn't sure "how much" it was "going to translate."

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"I felt kind of outside the box. I felt like, I felt isolated in my own world, and I really was in a period of my life where I did not feel seen at all," Eilish said. "And then the way people reacted when it came out, I was completely blown away by the way I felt understood. And this just goes even farther than that."

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Eilish performed "What Was I Made For?" at Sunday's 66th annual Grammys. She'll next take the stage at the 2024 Oscars to sing the tune, which is up for best original song alongside the fellow Barbie tune "I'm Just Ken" as well as "It Never Went Away" from the Netflix documentary American Symphony, "Wahzhazhe (A Song for My People)" from Killers of the Flower Moon, and "The Fire Inside" from Flamin' Hot.

If she wins there, it'll be Eilish's second Oscar. She won in 2022 for "No Time to Die," her theme for the James Bond movie of the same name.

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